Dedication

I was so excited last night!  My friend and I were going to go to her house and do water aerobics.  It sounded like a refreshing way to get my activity in for the day.  Well just as I was getting ready to head over she let me know that we wouldn't be able to go that day. I was so frustrated!  I wasn't mad at her but it was just the stumbling block that upset me. I had it all figured out and then BAMM!!  I knew I still needed to do something for the night so I wouldn't loose my momentum buy what? I didn't want to go outside in the heat but I also didn't feel like going to the fitness center by myself and there wasn't any one to go with. I really wanted to just cry!!!

I knew there would be hard days on this journey!  I also knew that in order to get through them I had to decide to be dedicated. The motivation was there but I knew that it was the dedication that would actually get me through.  I just didn't expect to rely on it so early.  So what did I do?  I put my shoes on and went out in the heat to walk.  Even though it wasn't what I thought I wanted, it was exactly what I needed.  I needed the power to overcome my frustration. I know it's not the end of my not wanting to do something but hopefully I can keep finding my dedication and accomplish the things that I may not feel like doing at the time.

I found this quote and it just fit with how I felt today.

The hardest part of the day

Well I think I have found the time of day that is the hardest for me.  It's right after work.  When I get home I want to just grab something to snack on.  It's crazy because I wasn't even hungry until I walked into my house and then I wanted whatever I could get my hands on.  Luckily I made some sugar free jello earlier today so I could just have a quick snack and that satisfied me. So I tried to plan for that last night.  I prepackaged a few quick snacks so that when the cravings come again I will have something ready.  I have decided that's probably one of the most important things about this journey...being prepared!

My husband has been really great and will go on walks with me.  It's not only a great way to get some activity but also a great time to spend with him.  I love that part of this journey.

My Journey Begins

 A few years ago I was diagnosed with Addison's Disease and put on some medication that saved my life.  However, one of the side effects of these medicines is weight gain.  Then I went into early menopause and was put on more hormones.  Again they are great to help me feel better but their side effects are also weight gain.
At first I just expected to gain weight and didn't worry about it.  Now I hate it!  I am ready to take control of my life and start taking care of that aspect.  I don't know how hard it will be but I imagine it will be difficult.  I do know that each journey begins with the first step.
My first step is joining weight watchers.  I know it's going to be hard because I hate tracking what I eat but I also know that is what will help.  I have to be accountable for it.
I am also starting to walk everyday.  I know I will eventually need to do more than that but that's where I am starting.
This blog will be my journey.  I will talk about my body measurements (scary), my activity, foods I eat, my feelings, my struggles, my successes, and so forth.

So the journey begins...

Starting date: June 28, 2017
Bust: 47 in.
Upper arm: 16.25 in.
Waist: 46 in.
Hip: 52 in.
Thigh: 30 in.
Weight: 240 lb.