On My Own

After talking with my doctor I decided to cancel weight watchers.   He said that it's a good program but there were others out there that didn't cost so much that were just as effective.  The more I thought about it the more that made sense. Why should I pay each month to track smart points?  The bad thing about that is that eventually I will want to stop paying the monthly fee and then I will have to basically retrain my brain because I will no longer be counting smart points but using calories or some other measure instead.  Wouldn't it be easier just to start with counting calories and not have to relearn everything again?
So I canceled and got charged a cancellation fee but I will no longer have the monthly fee.  I am going to use My Fitness Pal and see how that goes.

Rough Week

Well with it being a holiday week, I didn't do great on my journey.  I didn't choose to eat the best of foods and I was so exhausted each night that I didn't even walk!  UGH!!  It's kind of discouraging. We were so busy this week that I just didn't care if I ate ice cream and cheesecake.  Even with those not so great choices, I still tried to make good choices otherwise.  With all that being said I was a little surprised with my measurements this week.  I didn't loose weight but I didn't gain any either.  So this week I am going to try a little harder.  I really want to loose another 5 lbs. in the next 10 days.  Hopefully I can be successful.

Measurements for the week are:
Bust = 46.5 in (down .5)
Upper arm = 16 in (down .25)
Waist = 44 in (down 2)
Hips = 52 in (even)
Thight = 29 in (down 1)
Weight = 235.6 lb (down 4.4)

Treats

SSo weekends are hard!!  It is so hard to stay under my points when I am home and have little to do.  There is food everywhere.  I think I eat when I am bored.  So thankfully I had stuff to keep me busy most of the weekend.  But it was still hard! I am thankful that I had some snacks already set aside. That being said I still did it!!  I stayed on track!!  It was a huge accomplishment for me and it paid off today when I took all my measurements.  It gave me hope that I can get healthy, that I can make it through this journey.
I even had enough points left on Sunday for a treat!!  I had a chocolate covered Twinkies.

The funny thing about that is that I don't even like them!  But it was nice to have a little treat. Now I can make it through this week without craving one because they really aren't that good.  And definitely not worth wasting my points on.

Well since it has been a successful week I am actually excited to post my measurements so here they are.

Bust = 46.5 in. (down .5)

Upper arm = 16.5 in. (same)

Waist = 45.25 in (down .75)

Hips = 52 (same)

Thigh = 29.5 in. (down .5)

Weight = 235.6 lb. (down 4.4)

Dedication

I was so excited last night!  My friend and I were going to go to her house and do water aerobics.  It sounded like a refreshing way to get my activity in for the day.  Well just as I was getting ready to head over she let me know that we wouldn't be able to go that day. I was so frustrated!  I wasn't mad at her but it was just the stumbling block that upset me. I had it all figured out and then BAMM!!  I knew I still needed to do something for the night so I wouldn't loose my momentum buy what? I didn't want to go outside in the heat but I also didn't feel like going to the fitness center by myself and there wasn't any one to go with. I really wanted to just cry!!!

I knew there would be hard days on this journey!  I also knew that in order to get through them I had to decide to be dedicated. The motivation was there but I knew that it was the dedication that would actually get me through.  I just didn't expect to rely on it so early.  So what did I do?  I put my shoes on and went out in the heat to walk.  Even though it wasn't what I thought I wanted, it was exactly what I needed.  I needed the power to overcome my frustration. I know it's not the end of my not wanting to do something but hopefully I can keep finding my dedication and accomplish the things that I may not feel like doing at the time.

I found this quote and it just fit with how I felt today.

The hardest part of the day

Well I think I have found the time of day that is the hardest for me.  It's right after work.  When I get home I want to just grab something to snack on.  It's crazy because I wasn't even hungry until I walked into my house and then I wanted whatever I could get my hands on.  Luckily I made some sugar free jello earlier today so I could just have a quick snack and that satisfied me. So I tried to plan for that last night.  I prepackaged a few quick snacks so that when the cravings come again I will have something ready.  I have decided that's probably one of the most important things about this journey...being prepared!

My husband has been really great and will go on walks with me.  It's not only a great way to get some activity but also a great time to spend with him.  I love that part of this journey.

My Journey Begins

 A few years ago I was diagnosed with Addison's Disease and put on some medication that saved my life.  However, one of the side effects of these medicines is weight gain.  Then I went into early menopause and was put on more hormones.  Again they are great to help me feel better but their side effects are also weight gain.
At first I just expected to gain weight and didn't worry about it.  Now I hate it!  I am ready to take control of my life and start taking care of that aspect.  I don't know how hard it will be but I imagine it will be difficult.  I do know that each journey begins with the first step.
My first step is joining weight watchers.  I know it's going to be hard because I hate tracking what I eat but I also know that is what will help.  I have to be accountable for it.
I am also starting to walk everyday.  I know I will eventually need to do more than that but that's where I am starting.
This blog will be my journey.  I will talk about my body measurements (scary), my activity, foods I eat, my feelings, my struggles, my successes, and so forth.

So the journey begins...

Starting date: June 28, 2017
Bust: 47 in.
Upper arm: 16.25 in.
Waist: 46 in.
Hip: 52 in.
Thigh: 30 in.
Weight: 240 lb.